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It's been a while...

nalle117 — 2009-09-12T14:14:46Z

Okay, so it's been a while since I have updatet anything, and I can only say my life have change a whole lot since last time...I startet at this new school, and thought it was a very creative school, which after only 3 weeks there, turned out not to be. So I startet looking for other schools, and found this amazing one, where all you do is making music, and I mean, you tour around the country, you're in the studio recording, you learn have to mix things together and how to control the sound, and you get paid for it! So off course I wanted to go to that school, cause that's everything I want. But, I didn't really wanted to swift school right away, cause I had the biggest crush on this guy, so that just made it all more complicated. Luckly after this introduction trip we went on, we kinda hooked up, so now we've been a couple for 3 weeks. So, I finally feld like I could swift school, but the there was this entrance excamination, where you have to, in my case, play some guitar, so that they could see if you could anything at all. That didn't went well for me, cause as stupid as I sometime is, I had been to a party in the weekend, and gotten really sick, plus my boyfriend(that feels weird to say) stayed the night at my place, cause we only got to my place at like 4-5 in the morning. Off course we couldn't really sleep, which really wasn't a good thing, cause the night before, it had been my birthday, and all my girlfriends had stayed the night at my place, and we've only got like 5 hours of sleep that night. So we finally came to monday, where my big test came, and I was sick, haven't slept and extremely nervous, so it really went like shit for me. The day after they called me, and told there wasn't room for another guitarist right now, so I had to check out one of the other lines. Serioulsy, whole tuesday I was just crying, cause not only is it everything I want, but I've got a lot of friends on that school, so my world just crushed for me. Wedensday I called the school, and asked for if the theater line had room, and they only would know on monday, and that just annoyed me even more, cause now I had been at home for like 2 weeks without doing anything, and I hate doing nothing. Friday the school called me up yet again, and told me there was room for me on the theater line and most likely also at the music line, and that I have to come in on tuesday at 8:30, so I could get on one of the lines(obiviously music, or I hope so), so I can get startet...So this have basicially been my week or two, and it's been a nightmare. Cause not only have I been busy with changing schools, suddenly it also seems like everybody want's a piece of my time, because I have met like 40 new people the last two weeks, and I don't know, they want to know me, because it's my boyfriends friends...Yeah, very confusing...And I've got a lot of problems with one of my friends, which isn't helping either...So if you think it sounds confusing, try to actually go trough it...This is the first time I have some time for myself in god knows how long, so I just thought I would share my busy life with some of you guys:D

Just say the word...haha:D

nalle117 — 2009-08-13T06:49:26Z

It's been a while since I have updatet anything, but I've been so busy lately...haha:D So, I just started on a new school, which is awsome...There's a lot of really nice people in my class...However, even though I like it a lot, I don't know how to put this...Have you ever been a place, and you know it's not excatly where you suppose to be? To be honest, I only go on this school, cause I want to be an musician, and if that doesn't work, I have something to fall back on...I hoped that when I started I would find some to make a band with, but I'm not really sure if there's anybody that's interested, or have the same dreams as me...which sucks...haha:D But the good part is, that I'm gonna get a lot of experience, you know, to play with others and perform infront of an audience...But I'm so, so looking forward to the day, I find some people who truly understands me, and want the same things in life as me, and I'm temptet to say that I would travel anywhere, if just someone told me too...And I probably will, the day I'll get some money...haha:D So say the word, and I would go...haha:D But, be serious about it...haha:D

Bye from me now, leave me a note, I'll try to answer a little more in the furture...haha:D

Hmm...

nalle117 — 2009-07-11T12:26:14Z

Wauw, I just started remembering a lot of things, that I had forgot...I know it sounds strange, but it's like everything I have tried to forget, just are coming back to me...Both good and bad things...Well, mostly bad things sadly...Also, it feels like I have been gone for a year, like away from my friends and family, even though I have been here all the time, but my mind have/is just a whole other place...I think it will always be, well, at least when I'm here, cause it just feels like no one completely understands me, you know what I mean? And it's about everything, I mean, on a weird way, I just feel like no one else...Seriously, here is everybody just like "I need a good eduacation, a good job, I wanna get married, have kids" and stuff like that...But I'm not like that, not at all...I'm more of a dreamer, you know, after 3 years on the school I'm going to, I wanna be in a band, move to USA and try to make there...But here it's almost like it's forbidden to feel that way...That's probably why I sometimes choose to live in my own world, until my dreams will come truth...Is that so weird?? Some think it is...But in the moment I don't care, cause without dreams, no life...But that's just me...

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nalle117 — 2009-07-05T14:27:36Z

Sometimes people ask me what kinda songs I write...Well, to get a idea of what I sometimes write about, heres one...I just wrote it, and it might not be the best, but well, here it is:

Verse:

Standing outside the front door

Looking my future in the eyes

The first time I ever felt

So sure about anything

I'm ready, I'm ready

It's my choice

It's my life

Chorus:

Oh yeah, it's a new beginning

And oh yeah, it's a new seeing

So just look forward

Never more backwards

Oh yeah, I love this beginning

And oh yeah, this is new way of seeing

Verse:

No one can tell me what to do

Only my self

I feel sure about this

I'm ready to take the step

The first step to no regrets

I don't even know

If I'll ever return

But it's fine with me

Chorus:

Oh yeah, it's a new beginning

And oh yeah, it's a new seeing

So just look forward

Never more backwards

Oh yeah, I love this beginning

And oh yeah, this is new way of seeing

Verse:

It's my turn to find myself

Cause for the first time I know

This is who I am

Maybe it's just a dream

But I said no, no, no

Chorus:

Oh yeah, it's a new beginning

And oh yeah, it's a new seeing

So just look forward

Never more backwards

Oh yeah, I love this beginning

And oh yeah, this is new way of seeing

Verse:

Can't you see the walls breaking down?

Can't you see that the sky finally turns blue again?

Can't you see me, can't you see me?

It's time for me to disappear

Disappear from all of this

I'm ready to go away

Chorus:

Oh yeah, it's a new beginning

And oh yeah, it's a new seeing

So just look forward

Never more backwards

Oh yeah, I love this beginning

And oh yeah, this is new way of seeing

Chorus:

Oh yeah, it's a new beginning

And oh yeah, it's a new seeing

So just look forward

Never more backwards

Oh yeah, I love this beginning

And oh yeah, this is new way of seeing

Maybe I'm not gonna look back

Cause I'm just looking my future in the eyes...

Okay, so it might not be the best, but when I write songs, I write about what I have experienced or what I'm thinking about...So yeah...This is just a little part of what I'm thinking about...haha:D

Uhh...

nalle117 — 2009-07-03T08:04:22Z

Today I got a letter/package from the school I'm going to the next 3 years...I seriously got butterflies in my stomach when I opned the package, 'cause it's this school, where my main classes will be music, english and art at a high level, and it's just gonna be amazing!! Seriously!! And espicially cause I hope to meet someone that wanna make a band and so, so it's really important for me...Anyway, I got like the class list to, and well, theres like 10 boys out of 28 or something, but that's okay...My last class there was 4 boys out of 16, so...But I'm so, so looking forward to it, event though I first start at like 11. August, so there quite a long time, but man, it's gonna be great...Can't wait...Well, I hope it's gonna be great...haha:D

Metro Station in Copenhagen, and my graduation...

nalle117 — 2009-06-25T12:56:30Z

Well, I was at Metro Station's concert in Copenhagen last saturday, and I can only describe it as AMAZING!! Seriously, I had the time of my life...Me and my friend took the train at 12:27 from Århus that afternoon, and about 3,5 hour later, we arrived to Copenhagen. And just to mentione, I wasn't aloud to go, and like my parents thought I was at my friends house, and was staying there for the night, but no, I ran off to Copenhagen, and it was so worth it. Anyway, we finally came to Copenhagen, and then the real challenge came. We had to find the venue. We have never been in Copenhagen without anyone knowing where we is, so it was like scary/exciting at the same time. But after like an half hour or something, we finally found the place. There we met the worst girls that lived in Copenhagen(we have something in Denmark, where people from like Jutland have a lot of prejudice angainst people from Copenhagen, and the other way around), and seriously, we couldn't see where the line ended, cause people were like sitting in groups, like everywhere, so we thought, "hey, why not sit in the front, so we can come close to the stage", and that would have been what everybody would have done. So they were like "you have to move" and "move, or are you stupid or something", and we didn't move right away, until this nice lady came and nicely asked us to move. Anyway, it really pulled down the mood for like an hour. After some time waiting, Metro Station arrived, and seriously, everybody went crazy. After they got into the venue, we couldn't do anything beside waiting again. But, after some time waiting, Metro Station left the venue again, and everybody once more, went nuts. Then at 18:30, they finally opened the doors, and we were let in. After getting our bags to the wardrobe, we finally got into the place where everything would happend. So, we didn't got up front in the start, and we had to get through with the 2 supporting bands. After that, the concert finally started. And it was AMAZING!! It was so awsome!! Seriously!! And it was like being at a big party or something, and I finally got up almost in the front. And there weren't like that sercurity room between the stage and the audience, so we got really close. And they were so amazing live, and they kept throwing water at us, but that was just fun. And I got a plect, something from a waterbottle and something from one of their bracelets, and it was just, wauw...But, but, another really cool thing happend, cause afterwards, we got to see them leave, and then Anthony from the band, always films a lot of stuff when they're at tour, and make what he calls "Ant Cam", so when he came out, he was filming, and I'm pretty sure I'm now on "Ant Cam"...haha:D So afterwards, there was nothing to do, but get to the train station, and get home. But we met this really sweet girl from Finland, and she had to get the same train as us, and she were like in Århus for like a week or something, so we have been hanging out with since the concert...haha:D But amazing trip, and even though I only got like 3 hours of sleep, I would so do it again;)

And today I just was at my graduation, wich was a bitter/sweet moment, cause it's kinda of sad to like leave everybody, but now I have a wonderfull summervaication ahead, and that keeps up my mood:D Sorry for the late update, but I have been really busy lately...haha:D

That's what I call relax...haha:D

nalle117 — 2009-06-09T13:36:50Z

I just feel like I have swichted the day around...Seriously, I'm up all night and sleep to much of the day...It's not good...That's what you get when you have studybreak...haha:D Cause seriously, my scheduale for the next two weeks are: Friday this week, english exam, Friday next week, math exam, Saturday next week, Metro Station concert, Friday in three weeks, graduation or whatever it's called...And all the days in between, I pretty much decide what ever I wanna do, off course study for my exams, but I'm kinda lazy when it comes to that, so I always only start a day or two before...But what a freedom...haha:D I have been hanging out with friends, playing guitar for like 80% of the time, whatching movies and all the stuff I usually doesn't have time for...Wonderfull:D Thank god for studybreaks...haha:D

This is truly a bitter-sweet moment

nalle117 — 2009-05-30T07:17:11Z

So, yesterday/this night I had my last schoolday. It was sooo awsome, so much better than last year, words can't even describe it. So after we had breakfast with the teachers at the school and after 9th grade had played a basketball match against the teachers, and after we(10th grade) had played a soccermatch against the teachers, the day could finally really start. First we just went home to get rid of some of all the stuff we had with us in school, and then we went to a park, called Mindeparken(if I had to translate it, it would be the memorial park), and then the drinking began. And that was like at 12:00 or something. But every year, all 9th and 10th grades that lives near the park, meets there and listen to some music, drink a whole lot and just hanging out. And theres always so many people, really thousands or something, and almost everybody have a costume on, so it's so funny. Then around 16:00, and I was like really drunk at that moment and really sunburned, me and my friend went home, and I got ready for the party that would start at 20:00 that evening. So I like got an hour to take a shower and get all ready, while I was drunk, and that was hard...haha:D Anyway, then we were a couple to meet and get some dinner, and then we finally got on the bus to Solbjerg(that's the city where my school and all are). The party was in this barn and it was so cool. We had doormens, barmens and DJs, so everything was so good. And then we got even more drunk, like really, really drunk and danced and fooled around all night and the party went on until 03:00-03:30 and I was home at like 04:00 or something, and woke up with the worst hangover in history. But that's a night I'll never forget!! But even though it was so funny, it's kinda sad, cause I'm so gonna miss all the people from Solbjerg, cause this have been the best year of my life so far:) Simon, Alex, Søren, Oliver, Amanda, Stine, Julie Roland, Julie, Jose(Josefine), Sofie, Nathja, Cille(Cecilie) and Maria thanks for a fantastick year with you guys in my class, I'm gonna miss not hanging out with you everyday:D And thanks for the best night of my life(well, maybe except from Fall Out Boy's concerts i've been to;D)

XOXO

Wuhu!!

nalle117 — 2009-05-17T07:25:49Z

Wiii, Metro Station comes to Denmark!! Ive gotta go see them!! Seriously, it's not often someone good comes to Denmark...Omg, it's sooo awsome!! I'm a little hyper right now, it's amazing!!:D I hope so much I can go see them, so much!! Wiii:D:D:D:D

I hate this kinda problems!!

nalle117 — 2009-05-12T08:35:20Z

So today I was invited to an 18th birthday, at this girl that I really like, she's really one of the sweetest girls that I know...But the problem is that I don't wanna go!! First the party was at saturday, and I told her that I had plans with my friend(That I actually have), and then she pushed the birthday party to friday, just so I could come!! The reason I wont go, is that there's gonna be no one I know, and that's not usually a problem for me, but the kinda persons that comes, is like all very scary, and they just have the worst influence on one!! Seriously, no one is in school, they all just hang around and drink, smokes and so drugs every day, and it just makes me so uncomfortable...So I had to talk with my mother, and for the first time, and probably the last time, had to ask her to deny me going to the party...But I just feel so evil, and I just wanna cry, but I just woulnd't stand to go...Does this make me an evil person?? And I usually love parties, but her family and friends just scares me, and it's a really bad environment...I just can't go...And now my parents wont let me go, and even though I asked them to not let me go, I still feel like a bastard...